Slack Week

Oh man, it brings to an end of a very slack week of mine. Went back to office only once this wk and its for training, if not, i think i would not even go back to office. Went for swimming with zw, vin on monday. Tues, went out with my cousin for a catchup and dinner with jel. Wed, went for my edp classes. Only went back to office on thurs for abit of training and afterwhich, meet up with a fren for some catchup also. And here i am, friday, slackin at home the whole day. Gosh! I can't continue on like this anymore! need to do something abit it. too slack! might be doing some cold calling nx wk. need to build up on my courage on approaching strangers. i can't be depending on my warm market forever. I can't be pestering my frens forever. Although it will be gd that they can give me some referrals. haha! *wishful thinking* ya, i need to start helping myself and other ppl whom i dunno. its just the activity that i'm lacking of, product-wise, i believed that i'm about there already. (hor xx? if u're reading this) and perhaps the confidence to speak to strangers. Such a wuss i am right? haha! its time to change, to evolve.

"A Conservative Is One Who Believes That Nothing Should Be Done For The First Time"

Gastric Pain

Oh man, i hate suffering from gastric pain! HATES!

Got Alot More To Learn!

When Was The Last Time You Did Something For The First Time?

Well, everyone still learns as they ages, and i know that i still have lots and lots of things to learn in this business! And i mean ALOT! Its okay, i learn with every meetups with different people in different scenarios. Everybody picks up things as they go along and also, gains experience after every opportunity. But, given the current situation, i need to pick up the pace, start learning fast and i mean FAST!

Did i Changed?

There are things i didn't actually realize/know about until recently. It really makes me ponder over it. Think i might need to reflect on myself. Maybe my character wasn't as good as what i thought myself to be. And just maybe, my character wasn't good in the first place at all. There are things that happened years ago which i didn't really realized until i was told and i was like "huh?! got meh!?" Did i really changed then? Maybe i really do, unconsciously perhaps. Thats why its always important to have friends around that will actually be frank and speak up in your face of the drastic changes that took place (Thanks, you know who you are). In that short instance, lots of thing flashes through my mind. What really did happened/took place then that makes them think that i've actually changed? Did i or didn't i? Well, perhaps it doesn't matter anymore, because, the old chye is back! And is staying for good! =)

Holland V with Xiang, SM, KN

Met up with xiang and sm yst afternoon at je station, from there, we went to holland v for some hagan daas ice cream. *slurps*. Its been some time since i last went holland v. Afterwhich, roam at HV abit and waited for kn to come meet us, where she drove us to chinatown for dinner, at a place that offers some not-so-nice dim sum and big scary plate of horfun. haha. and then xiang went to meet his family while sm meet his mj khakis. while me and kn went to wm for some coffee at CB (seems obscene). talk talk talk for an hr or 2. but only talk abt 2 things. we talked abt this and that. okay. bo ho chio! haha. then we left for je mac, supper for her. and talk and talk again. this time abt soccer. cos yst mac is showing the opening match for euro'08. but half way through the match, decided to go home, its tiring to drive know? haha. but reached home, still cant slp sia. thanks to the ice kalameow la teh. i rarely drink coffee you see, and if i drink, sure insomnia de lor. only went to bed at 4am plus lah. lol. basket. and ya. thanks for the gween T! =)

Piss off la

Fucking seriously, if you're gonna comment on something that is not constructive at all, PLEASE, don't even try to start a conversation with me. If you wanna start chatting with me because you're feeling guilty and stuffs or just trying to get us back on talking terms, fine. But if you just want to be sarcastic and start boasting off to me how fortunate or lucky you are that you have a fucking good bf now, save it! If you want to justify how right you are by leaving me for another guy and that you're always right in every decision or things you do, save your comments for yourself. And i'm trying to be nice to reply you in a nice tone but i have my patience, my tolerance level.

Its not that i'm acting like i'm a sore loser now, the issue now is that you're provoking me! And although i'm not blaming you for what happened between us, i chose to blame myself for not doing enough but that doesn't mean it has nothing to do with you ok? Just that i don't like to blame others, instead i chose to dump everything on my shoulders. And if you think your comments will demoralize and take me down, you're damn fucking wrong! I will go from strength to strength, i'll prove it to you that your judgment isn't that great after all. HAHA! PERIOD.